It was New Years Eve 2001 and little me and a bunch of friends had gone to check out the The Nevis Bungy. Just as any self respecting teenager should do when on a gap year in New Zealand! I was going to spectate, I’d already bungy’d in Taupo and my gap year funds were disappearing rapidly.

The Nevis Bungy gondola

At The Nevis the fear begins before you are even in the launching room. The room is a glass gondola suspended in the valley with what looks like the tiny trickle of a stream far below, but is actually a credible river. The room has a glass floor, pumping music and a palpable air of excitement due to the motivations of the people who have shown up there.

Jumpers are called according to their weight, heaviest first and continuing through to the lightest. As each person does their jump and comes back up smiling and buzzing the anticipation and trepidation of those waiting to jump increases. As I watched jumper after jumper have their go the atmosphere caught up with me and I realised that I wanted to play too. As the sessions for that day, and that year, were drawing to a close a quick decision was called for and so I decided that yes I did want to do this. Immediately the sense of fear hit me.

After a short wait my name was called and I was sat down in the directors chair whilst the fat rubber rope was attached to my feet before making the slow shuffle from the chair to the edge of the gondola. “Oh wow” I said as I gazed out at the beautiful view across the valley to the hills and trees on the other side (of course it was beautiful, it’s New Zealand!). Shuffling up to the edge, I was focusing on not looking down but found myself unable to resist a peak anyway, it was a long way down!

Looking down from the bungy jump

A long way down!

I took a deep breath, wrestled with the thoughts in my mind and then uttered them aloud to Mr bungy man, “I can’t do this” I said oh so quietly. Maybe he was a motivational coach, well versed in assessing each wannabee jumper and knowing the exact right thing to say to encourage them, or a psychiatrist with a PhD in persuasion but I suspect he was just a guy with a cool job who said something similar most days. However there was nothing that could have been more effective to me then his reply “so what… you’re not even going to try?”. And with that I was gone, leaning head first over the edge until gravity took over. So quickly that Mr bungy man barely knew what had just happened!


And now 14 years later my older and wiser(?) self is stood with my toes curled over the edge of a bigger bungy jump. Not a physical one (this time!) but a mental and an emotional one as I step away from the security of a monthly salary and a 9-5 (ish) job to the unknown. With a semi-formed plan to do my own thing and the luxury of a bit of time to discover and act on my dreams and ambitions.

And so it’s time: not to bungy but to set out on life’s next big adventure;

  • To find my room – a place filled with people with similar motivations, who are figuring it out or have already made it. A place filled with encouragement where the doubters are the minority.
  • To spend some time thinking in the directors chair – working out what I actually want and how I’m going to achieve it.
  • To take small shuffling steps to the edge – they may be small but as long as I keep heading forwards I will be making progress. To curl my toes over the edge and gaze out at the possibilities.
  • To try not to look down, but most likely to take a sneaky peek and feel the fear – the risk of failure and the unknown, the rush of falling not knowing what it may entail. To question if I really want to do this, but to remind myself that yes, of course I want to try. And when I don’t have the strength to do so to have a support network of friends & other jumpers to help me keep going.
  • To push myself little by little over the edge until gravity or inertia takes a hold and there is no turning back.
  • And to have a team to high five once I’ve made my jump, to celebrate and to push myself to make further jumps. And to be there to help other wanabee jumpers make the jump if that’s what they want to do.

The Nevis BungyThe Nevis Bungy has around 8 seconds of free fall. Mine was longer as the length of the rope was still adjusted to the weight of the last jumper, a tiny Chinese lady who must have been a good 20kg lighter then me. In those 8 seconds I was so utterly scared I wasn’t able to make a sound, I wondered what on earth I was doing and I even started to question if I was going to feel the tug of the bungy at all. And it felt a hell of a lot longer then 8 seconds!

Who knows how long the freefall in my “doing something different” will last. But I suspect the feelings of fear and self doubt will at times be deafening in my mind as I wonder how long it will be until I feel secure in my work again. But hopefully they will be happily tempered with the excitement and anticipation of future possibilities.

3….2…..1… BUNGY!

Already jumped, thinking of jumping or just here to spectate? Please get in touch and tell me how you are getting on. I haven’t got it all worked out yet but I will be sharing my progress in future blogs, including some of my favourite inspirational “rooms” to hang out in, so keep an eye out for that.